Tuesday, May 14, 2013

the cure

Before summer started, I was off to a somehow not-so-great start.
I lost my phones and yes, phones. Something I earned for from my parents which made me upset because they also worked hard for it, I was into the wrong relationships and I was on the verge of losing great friendships
and most of all, I realized that I was floating away

Sure, summer started off like I wanted it to be, lazy days by catching up on TV shows, going on the internet for hours, showering at night other than morning which is disgusting but I kinda liked it and of course, loads and loads of sleep but one day, I woke up and realized that I had to let go of some things and clear all my clutter. I know it’s cliché but it helped.
The next thing I know, I was hanging out with my best friends with my promise of catching up with them for all the times and opportunities I missed with a sleepover and eating our hearts out. Sometimes, a single click of a camera makes you realized that you should start off somewhere again… I was unsure where to start but maybe and just maybe an old heart may be revived or I will be given a new heart.

From the views of Ilocos Norte, 

  to the rain and fog of Baguio, 

strawberries of Benguet 

and to the sands of Zambales...

I found a chapter that I will continue to write on.

Maybe losing the things I possessed before summer started was a sign. That I should let go of the traditions and things that I’m so used to have around me before I start a new chapter.I guess all I needed was to let my wanderlust go wild to go back to the process of where I want to be.

 Maybe, summer was there for me to let the heat of the sun burn the pain and at the same time for the water to cleanse me. For the cold to wrap me from my home.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Monday, April 29, 2013

out cold

after years of not seeing summer, I finally met with her again and I felt home within my fears.

Monday, January 14, 2013

a hopeless romantic's confession- the forbidden

Why do we love the wrong people?
When we were kids, we were warned not to touch the fire because its presence will hurt us. For modern example, that episode on Adventure Time where Princess Bubblegum warned Finn about kissing Flame Princess. 
But no matter how many warnings we get and how many walls we build, they're still gonna be that person that tears your insides just to leave his trails behind or makes the rain the kiss you've been trying to clear out your mouth but the after taste is still there.

We choose to love the wrong people because we like the thrill of being completely stupid for someone despite the fact that we're gonna be called some basket case for it. Somehow, you choose to be happy to the point of absurdity. Sisyphus was happy with his punishment of pushing a rock uphill and letting it roll down and the cycle continues but this isn't some punishment, it's a choice. But sometimes, like a vice, it starts to be addicting until it feels like a black hole...

Monday, December 24, 2012

have yourself a merry little christmas

We may have hard times but hey, we survived what the Mayans believed as the "end of the world". I'm grateful for a lot of things no matter how many crap I've been through and what the world also have been through. I hope 2013 brings hope for us all. A fresh start.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

I was a lunatic

As you might or might have known, I'm a literature major and for some people who don't completely understand my major/course/field, they would just get the impression that we read all the time which is somehow kinda true and false.
Anyways, I went to the 33rd Manila International Book Fair yesterday with Mara. My only problem was I didn't had enough time mingling with the books. The reason why I didn't had enough time is a whole other different story which involves my raging hormones, not going with the whole gang for the whole 3 hours they were there and ending up with a swollen knee. 

Me and Mara had a difficult time cutting our choices for our budget because we looked like we were hoarding which I blurted out loud and made one of the clerks smile. 

Mara's choices
1. Delirium by Lauren Oliver
-The book is dystopian young adult book and Mara quite needed it for the library paper we are currently doing for Academic Writing class.

2. A Hero with a Thousand Faces by Joseph Campbell
-She bought "Power Of Myth" also by Joseph Campbell a few days ago and she was so excited when she saw this book. We've been wishing for the two books ever since we were studying Young Adult Literature in our first year in college.

3. The Mythic Dimensions: Selected Essays of Joseph Campbell
-The book really was just the only stock we found and what I think was something rare.

4. Pulot Gata by Danton Remoto
-We're currently taking close reading in our Poetry class and one of my friends have this book for his close reading project.

My Choices:
1. It's A Mens World by Bebang Siy
-I started to get fascinated by the book when one of my friends were reading it and she was one of those people that was not fluent in the Filipino language even though she was born and raised here.

2. The Hunger Games Tribute Guide
-If it is not obvious enough, I'm obsessed with the Hunger Games. If I could buy the three books with their original covers, I would for the satisfy my little hangover for the book

3. Pulot Gata by Danton Remoto
-Mara and I had the same reasons but I wanted to buy this book because I wanted to immerse myself with the Queer Theory and Eroticism in poetry like my current read, which is Ophelia Alcantara-Dimalanta's "Passional".

4. Sex and the City by Candace Bushnell
-Other than Hunger Games, another obsession I had was Sex and the City because of how Carrie Bradshaw lives her life. There were two reasons why I needed to get this book: One, it was a rare original book cover copy of it and two, I wanted to know who Carrie Bradshaw is on the book.

5. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult
-I watched the movie version of this book and I found it very interesting. It had a good point of view and I wanted to get out of my usual petty,hopeless romantic young adult novels or books.

6.Power Of Myth by Joseph Campbell
- I always wanted to have my personal copies of the books that my professors let us photocopy for our class discussions so it was a "miracle" for me to find the book me and Mara were eyeing on for quite a long time.

7. Para kay B by Ricky Lee
-Bea, my friend, gave me the book as an 18th birthday gift for me and I already read the book which made me get teary-eyed at the same time, hung over. I wanted to give the book as a gift for someone.

So Mara ended up choosing "The Mythic Dimension" and I ended up with "It's A Mens World", "My Sister's Keeper", "Sex and the City", and "Power of Myth" but I really wish that I would have a chance to go back there today or have the opportunity to go again next year since it was such a great experience and the feeling of hype was rushing through my veins.

To the books I had to cut off because of budget, you don't know how much I wanted to hoard and buy you and maybe smell the pages.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

from love to obsession: hunger games

It's been four months since I talked and a lot has happened but thou shall promise to blog more about it.... In the meantime, I'm gonna share to you my "after 4-month obsession" with the Hunger Games

I guess I got the book by luck after 4 months since it was the last copy and it was on sale. 

What brings me more luck, is that I had time since I bought it. Unfortunately, since I can't stop reading it, I read all the three books within a week and now, I'm obsessed with it as ever as I love how the characters really developed and it really gave me strong images of each description of the people and places. What I'm also obsessed with the soundtrack since it really goes along with book.
Now all I have to do is wait like a little kid for Christmas for the sequels of the movie.